In the midst of my storm...

I have been through the storm for the last 13 months like I have never been in before but what has kept me is my love for my Savior, my Lord, my Jesus. The song that has just been staying my heart has been "I LOVE HIM TOO MUCH TO FAIL HIM NOW" One of the verses says

The years have brought me closer and my love for Christ has grown, each step has brought me nearer to my eternal home, you see I'm too close to heaven to turn back now, His grace will be sufficient I've got to make it I vow. (CHORUS) I love Him too much, to fail him now, too much to break my vow, for I promised the Lord that I would make that last mile, and now I love Him too much to fail Him now.

In the midst of my storm God has been so faithful to prove His love for me. There are times, very unusually times, I will just feel the overwhelming love of my savior. It is awesome...today a brother was sharing the scripture in Romans 8:35-37 where Paul talks about what shall separate us from the love of Christ...

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.

the last verse says...in ALL these things we ARE more than CONQUERORS through HIM THAT LOVED US...I just felt the love of God...we are only conquerors through Him that LOVES US!! Because HE LOVES ME, I AM MORE than a CONQUEROR!!

Over the summer I was expressing to some sisters how God has just been showing to me, proving to me, just how much He loves me. There is this song titled..."That's Why I Love Him Like I Do" some of the words say...

God saved me from myself when no one else was around, and it was only by His grace, His mercy, His favor cause I know I don't deserve all the love He shows, how He lets me know, He's never going to leave my side...that's why I love Him like I do...somebody told me we overcome by our testimony, but I remember how doubt and fear used to paralyze me, but God's hand brought me through a test and He brought out the very best, and now I'll never forget to tell the whole world what You mean to me...that is why I love Him like I do...

I like this other song..."I Don't Mind" it says...(this is God talking to me)

What can I do, to make you smile again, how can I prove that I've got your best interest at hand, my love for you is more than anything you'll ever know, so if you need me to show, you say it, cause I don't mind...I'll do anything but let you down, can I get a little credit, if you need me to show, say it, I don't mind...question is, where is your faith, haven't I proven myself before, and if the window is closed won't I open the door, cause my love for you is more than anything you'll ever know, so if you need me to show, say it, cause I don't mind.

this song makes me think of Jer. 29:11 - For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Another song has been "I'm in Love with Jesus"...growing up in the COG I would hear saints saying this...I would be skeptical...but going through the midst of my storm of Jesus I am really understanding what it really means to be In Love with Jesus. I love Him so much!! When I feel the overwhelming love of God just flood my heart I just start to cry, so happy to have this type of personal experience with God. He has brought me through many of hard battles, times when I didn't even think I would be able to hold on, times when my faith was weak, times when He just showed Himself strong...I just am so thankful, he showed mercy on me almost 11 years of truly being saved. I am so thankful that even before that, he showed so much mercy on me, He has just proved his love time and time again. Down through the 11 years of my salvation, I have been through some very hard situation, situations where I, of my own self, would have turned back on God, but it has been HIS love that has kept me, in the midst of the storms...it has been HIS faithfulness, HIS kindness, HIS mercy, HIS love, His power that has kept me, that has carried me. I am so undeserving of the love He has shown me, but He has shown it anyhow.

Every time I think about you.
Every time I read about you.
Every time I hear your name I start to smile.
Every time the sun starts shinning.
Every time the wind starts blowing.
Every time I feel your anointing I start to smile.
Let me take the time to say I love you.
Let me take the time to say I care.

I love you Lord
I'm in love with Jesus and He's in Love with me!

I am just sitting here in wonder, in awe of my Jesus, my Lord, my life!

My manner of life from my youth - Acts 26:4
The Lord perserveth all them that love Him - Ps. 145:20
We love Him, because He first loved us - I John 4:19

Yes We Can!!

I just would like to share this...

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Reformation Glory - COG Hymnal p.421

Zion's walls again are building as in days of yore, and the scattered host returning to their land once more are REJOICING in their freedom, PLEDGING evermore to stand in the reformation truths so grand.

Christians all should dwell together in the bonds of PEACE, ALL THE CLASHING OF OPINIONS ALL THE STRIFE SHOULD CEASE, LET DIVISIONS BE FORSAKEN ALL THE HOLY JOIN IN ONE, AND THE WILL OF GOD IN ALL BE DONE!!!!!!

O the reformation glory, O let shine to every land, we will tell the blessed story, in its TRUTH we e'er shall stand!

I was singing this on my way home today!! PRAISE GOD!!

Don't Give In

I am listening to Nikki sing this song (on this site)and it is such a blessing (again)!

You'll be glad you made it through another day
[week, month, year, lifetime]
You kept your testimony, you can stand and say,
I didn't have to sin, no I did not give,
Though I was tried and tested, He gave me grace to win
I came throught every battle with victory over sin
I stood my ground in Him and I did not give

Have I really done that?!?

Or maybe it should be "have I really NOT done that", I've only updated once a month since Oct or Nov. That is sad...

Well count this as an update.

For those who don't see me on a weekly basis...yet saved and encouraged with a desire to please God in everyway! That's my goal in 2007 - Please God in everyway. Not that I haven't been doing it before but that will be the focus...like the song Ayiesha Woods sings "What Matters Most"

You ask me where does my joy lie
I tell you in all that I do for Christ
You want to know how I am fulfilled
I tell you in doing my Father's will
You think it strange when I tell you
That it's what I live for and die if I have to
There's nothing more satisfying than knowing I'm pleasing
The One who matters most

Your will is planned 'til the end of time
How I fit in only You define
The meaning for my existence
I can't deny You - no room for resistance, no
The only One who makes sense of it all
Still trying to understand why my name You've called
But I'm created to praise You
It's what I'm made for and it's what I'll do

Been busy with some specific goals but despite all that, pleasing HIM is what matters most! God has continually proven to be my strength through it all!

I had a GREAT time with "the girls" a couple of weeks ago. Great to spend time with all of them!

Great Story/Song...

I was reading a blog today and they had the Christmas Shoes song on. I really like that song but usually only hear it around Christmas time (naturally). I looked it up on You Tube. Below is what I found, very touching. But what I didn't know was that is was a made for TV movie too. (Of course I wouldn't have known that!!) Anyway, they have the movie cut up into 10 sections, on You Tube, it is very touching.

The thought I got out of it was though we are faced with some HARD situations, you never know (and might never know) how it touches, and might change someone else as a result of what you did (or reacted) in the situation.

If you get a chance to watch it (the actual movie)...get a box of tissue before you start...VERY TOUCHING!

Fighting Song

This song is truly a blessing to my soul...it is truly testing times!! Keep the faith saints and keep fighting!

Chorus:
That’s why we must fight in this lukewarm age we must wake up the battle is still on, we must fight to get what we need let the Lord sense that we’re really going for it, blows are coming winds will be strong don’t surrender never let go, just fight keep on fighting the blessing will come.

Verse 1:
The Bible tells of a man with strong determination, with courage he held on & never let go, till he got what he wanted. His name was Jacob before he fought but after the battle was blessed with a new name. God called him Israel for he fought until he was blessed.

Verse 2:
The Bible says he was left alone to fight with the angel sent by the Lord, all night he pressed without rest for he knew that he was to be blessed. And in the morning when he was touched the angel said “Jacob let me go”, Jacob said “Bless me, bless me first, then I’ll let you go.”

Verse 3:
There are some battles we must break through & fight with the angel in the midst of our test. Lights are dimming & in no time it’s dark & you wonder if you’ll make it through the night. But let me tell you saints your fasting & prayers, it’s not in vain if its done for the Lord. Just fight keep on fighting the blessing will come.

Best Loved Songs (no particular order - just ones that came to my mind...it was hard to narrow down to 13). All these songs have been someway a blessing to me in my life. Probably what has impacted me more recently...

1. God's Way is Best
2. Fighting Song*
3. I Surrender All
4. I am Not Ashamed
5. I Need thee Every Hour
6. Sweet Hour of Prayer
7. I am Blessed
8. When You Believe
9. I'm Gonna be Ready (Yolanda Adams) (see below)
10. Whatever it Takes*
11. Everything to me (Avalon)
12. How Firm a Foundation
13. Yes (Shekinah Glory)*

I'm Gonna be Ready...


*look for a future post

I Surrender All - Clay Crosse

This song has been a blessing to me recently...

I have wrestled in the darkness of this lonely pilgrim land.
Raising strong and mighty fortress that I alone command
But these castles I've constructed by the strength of my own hand
Are just temporary kingdoms on foundations made of sand

In the middle of the battle I believe I've finally found
I'll never know the thrill of vict'ry 'til I'm willing to lay down
All my weapons of defense and earthly strategies of war
So I'm laying down my arms and running helplessly to yours

(chorus)
I surrender all my silent hopes and dreams
Though the price to follow costs me everything
I surrender all my human soul desires
If sacrifice requires that all my kingdoms fall, I surrender all

If the source of my ambition is the treasure I obtain
If I measure my successes on a scale of earthly gain
If the focus of my vision is the status I attain
My accomplishments are worthless and my efforts are in vain

So I lay aside these trophies to pursue a higher crown
And should you choose to use the life I willingly lay down
I surrender all the triumph for it's only by your grace
I relinquish all the glory; I surrender all the praise

Everything I am, all I've done and all I've known
Now belongs to you The life I live is not my own
Just as Abraham laid Isaac on the sacrificial fire
If all I have is all that you desire