Tuesday, November 25, 2008

I am living the best years of my life

God, I believe, blessed me with that thought on Sunday. I am truly living THE BEST years of my life. Is everything just perfect, is everything EXACTLY the way I want it, is my life where I thought it would be? NO. But I know I am living the best years of my life, right now. I am learning to live in and love the present; life is each day that we live, it is today, not ten years ago or five years in the future. Life is what is happening to me now, not what I am hoping for in the next five or ten years. Life is definitely what I make it, if I don’t like it, I need to make some changes. They might not happen over night, and there are some things we cannot control, but if, at the least, I can always change my attitude toward my life, it will be better. That is one main lesson I have learned THIS year. I can be “livin’ the best of life” or I can live in regret, every day of my life, for the rest of my life.

One of the best changes I made with my life was to give it to the One who has it all in control, the One who loves me (so much) and is concerned about where I am headed. The One who sacrificed HIS LIFE, so I could REALLY live and enjoy mine! (John 10:10) A change into Jesus Christ, that is making a change for the best. I’ve learned a lot with Him and we have been through some rough times, but it has been all good and I love Him a whole lot more than I did ten years ago.

So on my 28th birthday, I know I am in the best years of my life despite:
o Bad decisions I have made in my past
o Situations I wish I could do over
o My current circumstances that I wished I could’ve changed yesterday
o Some painful mistakes and choices
o The dreams and goals for my life that have yet to be fulfilled
o Opportunities lost
o Experiences gained

I have some great things going on in my life:
o Immediate (my mom, dad and sis) and extended family that love me and want what is best for me (even though we may not spend time with each other, as often as we would like)
o A really awesome group of friends that inspire and encourage me to do well and please God (love ya’ll!)
o A church community and fellowship (they are doing some great things and I love to be around them!)
o A job (it pays my bills (needs) – and some of my wants…PTL) my boss and the people are great!! (For my b-day somebody (I think my boss – or hers – still don’t know who) got cupcakes for me and everyone signed a card…they don’t normally do that…I am so thankful!!)
o A reliable car (ahh…the freedom)
o Strength for today (to do what I need to do)
o Hope for tomorrow (I’ve got some exciting plans for my life -- LW!)
o Clothes and food (oh yeah…LOL!!)
o A desire to please God in every aspect of my life and power to live free from sin, everyday (only by the grace of God…)
o Opportunity to be around young people (teens) who challenge and help me fulfill God’s plan for my life (you ALL are just GREAT, I love you all - thanks!)

LW, I hope to continue to keep this mindset, and five years from now, will still be able to say – “I’m living the best years of my life.”

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Saturday, November 08, 2008

Where We're Going...

-----NOVEMBER 4, 2008-----
I, along with some of my friends, went downtown Chicago to participate in the election rally for President Elect Barack Obama. I was excited beyond measure.

Earlier that day, I, like many fellow Americans, prayerfully cast my vote on whom I thought would be best. I, like I have done for the past nine years, made my most educated decision, basing my decision on many issues that affect the community and social circles I interact with. Like, as with the two presidential elections prior, I voted for the democratic candidate, as I feel that the democratic party candidate is the best for this position.

For the other offices listed on my ballot, I made choices that I thought were best based on the knowledge I had of the candidates and the issues that are within their control: some for the green party, some for the independent party, and yes, I even voted for one in the republican party. I have heard people make comments throughout this election year that implies or outright states, that many black people voted for Barack Obama solely because he was black. That idea would have NEVER even crossed my mind. I feel that the idea that I would vote for anyone solely on the basis of their color is demeaning to my intelligence.

The fact that the democratic candidate was a black man gave me much pride and inspiration. Being only 40-50 years out of the blatant racism (believe me, there is underline racism that is still strong...) exhibited in many parts of our country towards blacks in America, I knew that if he won, this would be history. It was something we've always talked about, but I guess I never believed it would happen...not now, not while I was still young!

As the hours wore on and we listened to the states that Obama or McCain had won our anticipation grew...what would be the outcome? As I looked at those fellow Election rally attendees, I saw many people (and talked to some, or overheard their conversations): A mother with her young daughter, a father with his daughter on his shoulders, a group of college age students, a young couple, a family, people who just came from work, others from out of state. The diversity was awesome! White, Black, Hispanic, Asian, Middle Eastern, young and old all wanting and waiting for a change. It seemed like it happened so quick...one minute we were looking at the electoral votes climbing and hearing cheers or boos as the states were being estimated, the next..the decision had been made.

I was standing with Jackie, Clare, Trese, we were in a place where it was difficult to see the screen. (Though we were in the next section by the VIP area (where Mr. Obama said his speech), we were in the back and they had a VERY large screen set up for us to see CNN.) I would randomly stand on my tip toes to see the screen when the crowd would let us know something was happening (cheers, boos, countdown...) I will NEVER forget, I looked at the screen (after hearing the crowd countdown) and it said "BARACK OBAMA ELECTED PRESIDENT" I screamed and jumped up and down, and kept doing it. Earlier that day, I thought I was going to cry at that moment...but I couldn't I was too happy, too stunned, too excited, too overwhelmed! I just kept screaming and jumping up and down, hugging those around me and screaming some more!!

(I found this video on YouTube that will help you feel the emotions that I felt at that moment (no one in our group was recording at the moment), I was farther back then where the person captured this at - only way to tell was by the large flags that were scattered among the crowd - at that time we were to the right of the the 2nd or 3rd flag - but the atmosphere was the same throughout!)

I was so happy. Never more happy, proud and glad to be an American citizen, to be a BLACK American citizen! Yes, never before in MY life did I feel the feelings that I felt that night. Here I was, a part of the "young generation", those who had not seen the blatant racism (being called nigger - though I have been called that before, not being able to vote, not being able to eat at certain restaurants, not using certain water fountains, restricted from certain schools and the list could go on.), those who yet have a hope for cultures and ethnicities to be able get along and intermingle with each other and yet still be proud of their original racial heritage. Not letting race be a sole factor of our decisions and moving toward a better society.

I understood that what had just happened around me was the first step in good and better things for race in America. Do I believe that since Obama is in office that things will change overnight for America? No, but I understand for America to make their choice clear (VERY CLEAR - Electoral votes: 364 - OBAMA and 163 - McCAIN), it wasn't just Black people that voted Obama in office. It wasn't just White people, it was many different people together, with the same desire in mind: CHANGE. Change to work together to make things better for ourselves and others, working together to help our fellow Americans, not being selfish about what and where I have gotten, have a heart of love towards those less fortunate. I understand that many people's sweat, tears and blood made the trail for Obama to get where he is today. I understand where people have come from (slavery, jim crow era, underline racism), and I see and understand where we are going... The end of that song (Where We're Going) says: "I give thanks to GOD because I know where I'm going and I know where I've been!"

The night was beautiful, November had not been that warm for over 60 years (if I recall correctly)! The people were peaceful, there were NO incidents that night of misbehavior (Yes, NO incidents, even with ALL those people).

Martin Luther King's speech, "I Have a Dream" hangs above my bed and I see it every day. SIDEBAR: President elect Barack Obama will be sworn in January 20, 2009, five days after MLK 80th birthday! As I read the speech, these words stick out to me:

Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. (2008 is another beginning)
So even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream. I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal."

I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.


I have cried since Tuesday, happy to see this moment in time...glad that United States of America has come to THIS point. Knowing what it has taken to get here and knowing that more sweat, blood and tears will be needed to keep on going. Our young black young people can believe in their dreams and know they can get where they want with God's help. Check this out...

Wednesday night we had a prayer service for our new president elect, his family and our country. Continuing in our obedience to the scriptures "to pray for them in authority that we may lead a peaceful life."

I Timothy 2:1-3
I exhort therefore, that, first of all, supplications, prayers, intercessions, and giving of thanks, be made for all men; For kings, and for all that are in authority; that we may lead a quiet and peaceable life in all godliness and honesty. For this is good and acceptable in the sight of God our Saviour;


May we all continue to do this...

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PRESIDENT ELECT



Isn't this ABSOLUTELY beautiful!! I LOVE IT!! WOW...I feel like I am in a dream...who would have thought I would have seen THIS day!! I LOVE IT!!

Lets continue to keep the family in our prayers...

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Sunday, November 02, 2008

In the midst of my storm...

I have been through the storm for the last 13 months like I have never been in before but what has kept me is my love for my Savior, my Lord, my Jesus. The song that has just been staying my heart has been "I LOVE HIM TOO MUCH TO FAIL HIM NOW" One of the verses says
The years have brought me closer and my love for Christ has grown, each step has brought me nearer to my eternal home, you see I'm too close to heaven to turn back now, His grace will be sufficient I've got to make it I vow. (CHORUS) I love Him too much, to fail him now, too much to break my vow, for I promised the Lord that I would make that last mile, and now I love Him too much to fail Him now.
In the midst of my storm God has been so faithful to prove His love for me. There are times, very unusually times, I will just feel the overwhelming love of my savior. It is awesome...today a brother was sharing the scripture in Romans 8:35-37 where Paul talks about what shall separate us from the love of Christ...
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.

the last verse says...in ALL these things we ARE more than CONQUERORS through HIM THAT LOVED US...I just felt the love of God...we are only conquerors through Him that LOVES US!! Because HE LOVES ME, I AM MORE than a CONQUEROR!!

Over the summer I was expressing to some sisters how God has just been showing to me, proving to me, just how much He loves me. There is this song titled..."That's Why I Love Him Like I Do" some of the words say...
God saved me from myself when no one else was around, and it was only by His grace, His mercy, His favor cause I know I don't deserve all the love He shows, how He lets me know, He's never going to leave my side...that's why I love Him like I do...somebody told me we overcome by our testimony, but I remember how doubt and fear used to paralyze me, but God's hand brought me through a test and He brought out the very best, and now I'll never forget to tell the whole world what You mean to me...that is why I love Him like I do...

I like this other song..."I Don't Mind" it says...(this is God talking to me)
What can I do, to make you smile again, how can I prove that I've got your best interest at hand, my love for you is more than anything you'll ever know, so if you need me to show, you say it, cause I don't mind...I'll do anything but let you down, can I get a little credit, if you need me to show, say it, I don't mind...question is, where is your faith, haven't I proven myself before, and if the window is closed won't I open the door, cause my love for you is more than anything you'll ever know, so if you need me to show, say it, cause I don't mind.
this song makes me think of Jer. 29:11 - For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Another song has been "I'm in Love with Jesus"...growing up in the COG I would hear saints saying this...I would be skeptical...but going through the midst of my storm of Jesus I am really understanding what it really means to be In Love with Jesus. I love Him so much!! When I feel the overwhelming love of God just flood my heart I just start to cry, so happy to have this type of personal experience with God. He has brought me through many of hard battles, times when I didn't even think I would be able to hold on, times when my faith was weak, times when He just showed Himself strong...I just am so thankful, he showed mercy on me almost 11 years of truly being saved. I am so thankful that even before that, he showed so much mercy on me, He has just proved his love time and time again. Down through the 11 years of my salvation, I have been through some very hard situation, situations where I, of my own self, would have turned back on God, but it has been HIS love that has kept me, in the midst of the storms...it has been HIS faithfulness, HIS kindness, HIS mercy, HIS love, His power that has kept me, that has carried me. I am so undeserving of the love He has shown me, but He has shown it anyhow.

Every time I think about you.
Every time I read about you.
Every time I hear your name I start to smile.
Every time the sun starts shinning.
Every time the wind starts blowing.
Every time I feel your anointing I start to smile.
Let me take the time to say I love you.
Let me take the time to say I care.

I love you Lord
I'm in love with Jesus and He's in Love with me!


I am just sitting here in wonder, in awe of my Jesus, my Lord, my life!

My manner of life from my youth - Acts 26:4
The Lord perserveth all them that love Him - Ps. 145:20
We love Him, because He first loved us - I John 4:19

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