Life Lived

When I was younger I used to wonder what people really meant when they said they wished they knew what they know now when they were younger. I understand now.

Recently I have been thinking, I wish I knew what I know now 10 years ago. The last 10 years would have turned out so different. But that is not how life is orchestrated. What one has experience in, knowledge of, etc. at 27, one just doesn't have it at 17. My dad used to always tell me (in my teens) that you can't have experience and youth at the same time. So true. I know that, relatively, I am still young, but I have been feeling my age more (that years are just slipping by) in the past 2-3 years.

Well...we learn from our mistakes, experiences, decisions, etc. Despite it all God has been helping me understand (even when I don't always remember it in the midst of the battle) that Rom. 8:28 still is true. One thing I rest in when I think of all the different decisions I would have made (could I live the last 10-15 years of my life over again) is that God is still in control. Salvation provides that rest in God, that no matter what happens, God is still in control and He will work it for my good. I also thank God that the even in the bad decisions that I have made, they haven't been life altering...!! They have been things that I was able to learn from. Thank God!

By the way, I was reading a some of the verses in Ps. 145 today...God is awesome!!